Saturday, July 23, 2011

Bend your elbows, lower your arms. . .

For the most part this is how I live:

I wish I could say that the "breastplate of righteousness" or something else armor-of-God-ish, but that would be an obvious lie.

I find myself constantly on the guarding myself, against anything and everything, including God.

Believe me, I know how ridiculous that is. But there's something so hard about surrender.

Letting go. . .

Its not directly an issue of doubt, I don't think. Its more about fear, and my inability to differentiate between trusting people and trusting God.

Oh but grace. . .

Faith is a code to accept that Jesus knows my whole life story, every skeleton in my closet, every moment of sin, shame, dishonesty, degradedness darkening my past. Right now he knows my shallow faith, my feeble prayer life, my inconsistent discipleship, and he comes beside me and he says, I dare you to trust. I dare you to trust that I love you, just as you are and not as you should be, because you're never going to be as you should be.
-Brennan Manning

1 comment:

  1. Great blog once again... are you a writer? If not you should be. Also I believe that like life faith is a process, not an event. have a wonderful day... oh, also this is what i ministered on this past weekend, concerning trust:
    1. Be causual to all (friendly)

    2. Close to a few (eg. peter, james & John)

    3. Have unresolved conflict with none

    See ya!