the sound of...

Do you ever hear the silence?
I am sure there is a fancy scientific explanation, but when I am stressed it is there...not quite a buzz, not quite a hum...

My body hurts every morning. Nothing is wrong, it just...aches...I feel heavy, like I'm one of those really strong magnets, being sucked into the earth. I lie in bed, feeling my blood pulsing through me.
I might be a hypochondriac. I also have a throbbing in my right boob.

I need to fix this.
I need to be a better person.
I need to be a better friend.
I need to be an adult.